imagine you are lying on a wasted desert planet, fixated on the ground, tied by invisible filaments, unable to move...
now imagine a globe.
hovering over you. without any strings, just being there without any explanation held by forces you dont comprehend.
its color is black.
the deepest black you find in the most remote areas of space.
it’s hovering over you, menacingly.
it’s humming constantly and sometimes it screams so unnatural your ears start to bleed and no thought can cross your mind but the wish to let it stop... you want to become deaf just to make it disappear.
you know it can come crushing down on you anytime, but you have no idea when... you cant do anything else but stare at this gigantic thing, hoping it will stay where it is, panting frantically and dreading the inevitable with every breath... and when it finally descends towards you it does in the most unrelenting way... and there is nothing you can do but wait and endure...

some people call this globe "life..."
everything is just so messy in my head.... why do things have to be so ugly at times? why do we keep suffering? questions that were forced upon me on a daily basis... maybe time will heal the wounds, but the scars will always remain...
i found someone who could keep the globe away from me... or so I thought... oh well...

on another note: i want to express my deepest thanks to all of you who supported my works in the past


merry christmas... or more like merry shitmas... i hate this time, everybody is so insincere and fake right now... not caring the whole year long and then all of a sudden they "love" you so much and show you their "appreciation“ of you...